Trust Fall

Trust Fall

Have you ever done a trust fall before? You could be standing in front of the person for what seems like forever because you’re scared they won’t catch you. The funniest moments are when you do a couple of fake falls because you want to trust the person, but something in you just won’t let you fall back completely. However, when you finally fall it only takes that one time for them to catch you because now you can keep falling over and over without thought.

I say all this to say, it’s hard to take those first steps in trusting yourself let alone falling into someone else. But, we did it and figured out quickly that it wasn’t that bad when we did. Trusting people is hard for me. Very hard for me because I think I’ve fallen too many times into the wrong arms to the point where I’ve just stopped trying. I eventually came to the realization though, that one reason it was so hard to do the trust fall was because I don’t think I was too sure in myself. If they didn’t catch me, I should be confident that I would keep myself from getting hurt. A lot of times we don’t do things for ourselves because we are scared no one will catch us or support us a long the way. I found out that most times people won’t support your vision until you’re living it. So, as most things, it starts with you. Trusting your purpose because everyone isn’t meant to understand it.

I’m at that age where everyone is wondering what I want to do with my life, including me. I am at a constant dilemma of doing what I want to do and doing what seems to be the “sensible” track. It doesn’t help that friends and family seem to push the “sensible” track on me as well because “They just want me to be able to support myself”. Duh. I do too. Why can’t that be the route that doesn’t look so clear? Why can’t it be the path that I’ll have to work a little harder for? I don’t think the sensible track and what you want to do always has to be two different paths. If you love something and really have a passion for it, I always think there will be a way to find money in it. Everyones idea of success is different and that is something you will have to sit down and think about. Me personally, I see it that if I can get some type of Dunkin Donuts or Starbucks coffee regularly, I’m content. Kidding, Well, kind of. Going against the odds of the success story everyone sees for you or doesn’t see for you can be extremely hard and takes A LOT of confidence. I’m still working on the confidence level needed and that’s why it seems to be so hard to make the decision. I’m so busy trying to build up the courage to trust fall into people that I haven’t thought about being able to catch myself.

Denzel once said “ If you’re going to fail, at least fail big” and that stuck with me. Nothing is guaranteed, so why not try at what you love? Why not work on trusting yourself and doing what you think your future should be? I also saw a quote that said “ You only fail at the things you don’t try at”. What you see for yourself may not end up being what plays out for you in the end. However, I can almost guarantee a person with a strong mind able to fight for their dream will find where they need to end up.

Don’t be scared of the idea of having to catch yourself girl. Don’t be scared of pursuing a life people around you may not see. Learn to be okay with the journey, with your journey. I am a firm believer that God put us all here for something and if you woke up another day it’s a chance to figure out what it is.