I Am
I Am
The thing about growing into who you are is that there are so many changes you have to go through. It’s definitely not a wake up one day and have adulting and yourself all figured out. Some days you may feel like you took ten steps forward, the next it may seem like everything you’ve been working on is just falling out of place so you end up 100 steps back. We all have something or someone that we go to in those times. A friend, a significant other, a blunt. All of these things have consequences that come with them. I can’t speak on some, I lean more so on others and all in all I’ve realized that at least for the people aspect, it is VERY important to watch what and who you have around you, especially in these times!
Some people do not want what’s best for you, let’s just start with that. They either met you at your weak points and think this is who you are or they were waiting to catch you at this point. People catch on quick to your bad days. Confidence to me is a challenge because it really is different everyday and if you meet the wrong person on the wrong day, they can really try to treat you like a lame. There’s no other way to say it. At any time in your life people will try you to see how far you’ll go and that’s just a hard truth. It just hits a little harder when you lose who you are and these people are suppose to be around to remind you and they aren’t. That “friend” or “ significant other” that decides to take what’s said or done in a time of vulnerability and use it as a one up on you isn’t someone you need around on your good or bad days. Someone who sees you’re “acting different” and treats you different isn’t someone you need around.
Lets not forget the “ you can be doing well, but not better than me” people. They are a very manipulative group because they want to get close enough to you to have a say and for it to matter so they’ll do the little things to make you feel like they care. Buy you the flowers, call you beautiful, hype up your pictures. However, when they get mad or they see you may be in a position to not defend yourself. They’ll use the relationship they have with you to keep you down. I have definitely had people around me in the past that I would be telling my mistakes to and could tell from their reaction that they weren't listening for me, they were listening for them. " Oh, Morgan did this and I would of never expected it from her, but now she can't say anything when I tell her about something I've done." If you know it's out of my character why are we not checking on our friends? Because they can be doing good, but it's good to know they aren't surpassing you.
I saw this quote somewhere that said protect your heart. Yes, this is important, but also protect your peace, your victories and protect your weaknesses because people will try to make you what they need you to be and if you aren’t protected they will change you or keep you where you’re at. I, for one don’t talk to God as much as I should, but I’ve never altered my thoughts on the fact that he is someone who can always be trusted. The title of this blog is I Am and whatever word first pops into your mind after reading this means a lot. I AM WORTH IT. YOU ARE WORTH IT. Don't keep people around who don't make you feel this way.
